I hope this year starts off better than last year ended - due to the first snowfall of the season and the subsequent slick-as-snot roads, I spent my New Year’s Eve cooped up in the house with a bottle of champagne watching the South Park marathon. Alone. I shouldn’t complain, really, as I much prefer staying at home and preserving my life to being out on icy roads with a bunch of drunk fucks. Oh, well. New Year’s is overrated, yeah? I mean, it’s just another reason for everyone to get piss-ass drunk and do really stupid things, which is how I spend most weekends anyway.

As the new year is a time for reflection, I spent last Sunday night rereading all of my old Livejournal entries, and I can honestly say that I am in a far better place now than I was a couple years ago. I was almost amazed at the fact that I was so depressed. Like, not just every once in a while, but all the time. Every single entry made me wonder why I hadn’t killed myself already. I was so annoyingly EMO.

Speaking of emo, I’ve been feeling so insanely pre-menstrual for the past few days. Not physically, but mentally/emotionally. Y’know how it is - when every little thing bothers you and you start thinking about really stupid things and you cry for no reason and you’re highly irritable and you yell at everyone for no reason and you just want to eat cheese and chocolate all the time? Yeah. That’s me PMSing.

I’m about fed up with boys. I don’t understand them and they say things that I don’t want to hear and they never want to give me what I want, so I hate them. I think I shall cut boys out of my life as a New Year’s resolution. They just complicate things and frustrate the fuck out of me and I’m starting to think it’s all not worth it.

My other resolutions are quite cliche. Y’know, the “quitting smoking and losing weight” thing. Quitting smoking is gonna suck (it’s been - *looks at watch* - 10hrs and 43mins since I’ve had a cigarette, but I’m alright… really… though, I’d like to have one right now… but I know I can’t, so I won’t… but… I can’t), but I’ve done it before so I know I can do it. Losing weight shouldn’t be too bad, either, as we recently purchased a treadmill for the house, so I don’t have to pay for a gym membership. I’ve also resolved to finally take the feckin’ GRE, so that will be done by May of this year. Hopefully, I’ll find the time to study and work out everyday. I’ll probably have to do both simultaneously, though I’m horrible at multi-tasking.

I also need a new layout for this shit. I’ll have to work on that, too. *adds to the list*

10:30am seems way too early to be drinking beer and watching football, but Nebraska is playing in the Cotton Bowl this morning, so I find myself in front of the tv with a glass of alcohol and a pounding headache. I have too much to do today to be watching football, really. The Christmas tree needs to come down and the driveway needs to be shovelled and I need to vacuum and dust… though, I have tomorrow off of work (thanks, Gerald R. Ford - you were a good man), so I suppose it can be done then. I’m so indecisive lazy right now. I just can’t be buggered. *big sigh*

I need a cigarette.