So very glad that the holidays have come and gone. Christmas and New Year’s always stress me out and make me super-anxious. Won’t complain about the time off, though - it’s been so lovely not having to go to work for the past week and a half. Back tomorrow, to piles of files and mail and emails. Seems we may be quite busy at work for some time to come.

All day, I’ve felt like I had a thousand things to do, but I couldn’t really bring myself to do anything but sit on the couch and watch tv. Not a very productive start to the new year, really.

I’ve made quite a list of resolutions this year, more than I’ve ever had before. They include the usual (quit smoking, lose weight, etc.) and the slightly unusual (start using coupons when I shop… yeah, seriously). All of them are basically just a way for me to become more responsible. (Oh, the horror. That word has always scared me.) Encourage myself to make better decisions and take care of me, both physically and emotionally. I guess I’m trying to become a more well-rounded, independent person at this point. Something I feel that I haven’t been for quite a while (if ever, really).

I know that it’s gonna take some time, and as much as I would like to just like to snap my fingers and be a grown up, it won’t happen that way. So, I’ve created my own 12-Step Program to Adulthood. Step 1 has been accomplished, as I have effectively managed to cut out all the “friends” in my life who really don’t give a shit about me. While I thought I would be lonelier without them, I’ve actually found that I now have more time to do the kind of things that I enjoy doing and hang out with the people who actually matter. It’s kinda wonderful.

Step 2 shall commence this weekend… when I start to organize my finances and plan a budget for the next couple months. I’ve started a savings account in hopes of possibly buying a new car at the end of the year (barring a complete breakdown of the car I currently own, I should be able to do this). I’m going to stop over-indulging and making frivolous purchases - basically, I’ll just avoid going into Best Buy for the next year, and that should take care of that little problem entirely. And, I think I will try my hand at a Finance class and attempt to find out where I put those few thousand dollars of my 401k last year. They’re in a bank somewhere… I think. o_O

This post has been kind of cathartic, in a way. And pretty… heavy. (Sorry. Blame my hangover.)